BACK IN THE RING

It feels good to be home. i'm ready to lay some hurt on it, minneapolis.

ALMODOVAR

So I'm obsessed with this director from Spain, Pedro Almodovar. I have seen five of his films now and they get better and better. The most recent one I watched was Kika. There is a rape scene that is so hilareous. Its supposed to be. The main character Kika is raped by an ex-porn star and escaped criminal who also happens to be her lesbian maid's brother. Its just absurd because during the rape, which is super long due to the rapist's porn star stamina, Kika starts mentioning all the chores she has to do, and how her back hurts...she gets bored of reacting with terror. I think this is prime. Its super pop. I'm reading this book about Almodovar, and I guess they call him the spanish Andy Warhol, because he started doing 8mm underground movies in the seventies. Around the same time Andy was doing his films, or rather Paul Morrisey. The rape scene reminds me of a similiar scene in Women in Revolt.

The movie gets really serious, but throughout he uses this really great humour to keep it from sinking in. The tape I rented was really badly dubbed too, which only added to the experience. Kika is like really Sally Jesse Raphael if you get that. or Ricky Lake-ish. The whole aesthetic is so pastel and tacky and dated and just kitsch. I'm in love with it.


Anyway I'm into his films and I suggest you watch them. The ones I've seen so far:

Bad Education- really beautiful movie about among other things, trannies, brothers and catholics.
Talk To Her-a woman in a coma gets pregnant...questions are asked.
Volver-penelope cruz' mom. ghost or not? also disposing of body.
All About My Mother-again, trannies, motherhood, and forgiving the unforgivable.
Kika-main character is in deep shit but doesn't really get it.

NEAT

proverbial chill-pill popped. its easy for me to get caught up in things, i am sort of short-sighted. this is why i can bead my shoes for hours, and not realize my cigarette has burnt through my rug to the floor. its a perspective thing. i'll work small, even given a huge piece of paper, i'll draw tiny, and in a corner. i have trained myself to be un-obtrusive. that might be laughable though because some people know me as loud-mouthed, selfish, bossy, and 'so gay when i'm drunk.' we all got angles.

this next year is going to be good i think. lets toast to an education/career in a passion, friends, eyes wide open, being young, AND UBER-POSI-CORE-BLOGS ABOUT GROWING AND SELF AWARENESS!!!!


things i want/ like looking at right now:






the closest image i could find to my car.

DRIPPING LIKE A CROCODILE

i wish i could be less bothered by this. i need to take a chill pill. things don't always go according to plan. whatevskis.